I saw a Venn Diagram that indicated that Habit is where Skill, Knowledge & Desire overlap. Well, that doesn’t explain these habits that I wish I could get rid of.
In no particular order:
1.) Nail-biting: As near as I can tell, this is a combination of stress and perfectionism that leads my mind to wander off of whatever I’m watching/thinking of and finds some menial task that must be done before I forget about it. Forget the financial situation or huge work project on my mind, when the hell did this damn nail get extra long? It’s not clean, I wish I had stopped years ago when my mother threatened to put Tabasco on my nails. (I knew it was a bluff because she never bought hot sauce)
2.) Always having to be Right: Various reports have told me this is one of my most annoying traits. Supposedly, people don’t like to you to remind them that you have the right answer. I’m not quite sure why this is, but I am willing to accept the theory. I have yet, however, to come up with a way to keep my mouth shut when I hear someone saying/doing something #FAIL.
3.) Eating Junk Food: I know how to cook. I enjoy cooking. I know what healthy food looks like, and I enjoy the taste of loads of healthy food. So then why do I eat so many cheeseburgers and tacos and pizzas and fatty fat shit? Don’t give me the whole “culture of obesity” bit, this is my failed life choice and it’s time to turn the ship around, damn it! Right after I finish the left over pizza in the fridge…
4.) Awkward First Impressions: (See here)
5.) Procrastination: Prime example, I was supposed to write this blog, along with 6 others, last night. Instead, I put it off and now I’m jamming it out before work while my shirt & pants are in the dryer (because the dryer is how you de-wrinkle clothes when you’ve put-off hanging them up nicely). How much more could I get done if I just hopped to it? Years ago, when I was first living alone, I intentionally did not have any television signal, and got load of stuff done. Bills paid on-time and filed away, books & magazines read faster than I could acquire more, took random trips exploring places in the city just to see what was there. It’s miraculous what we can get done when I just unplug and go live.
Weekends in Spring & Summer make me think of two things: new movies and baseball. Right now we find ourselves two weeks into the season and my Yankees are in 1st place in the division.
Yes, I live in Phoenix, could walk to D-Backs games, but I love the Yankees.
(here’s why, after the jump)
Here’s an old blog from two years ago.
At this point, I’d been wrestling with the possibilty of single-fatherhood, was hating my living situation, had seriously let down my brother, and had intentionally isolated myself from the woman who would later let me come to my senses and spend the last 19 months with her.
Wonder how much I have changed and how much it’s just that my environment/viewpoint has changed….
Posted: Leap Day, 2/29I’ve just been rocking out a lot lately, so I thought I’d share some. Here below are my favorite lines from the first five songs in my playlist.Rest My Chemistry by Interpol“And I’ve made stairways/ such scenes for things to regret/ oh, those days in the sun/ they bring a tear to my eye/”While My Guitar Gently Weeps by The Beatles“With every mistake we must surely be learning/ still my guitar gently weeps/”Martyr for My Love for You by The White Stripes“And I bet we could build a home/ but I know the right things for me to do is to leave you alone/”Tear You Apart by She Wants Revenge“It’s only a crush, it’ll go away/ it’s just like the others, it’ll go away/ or maybe this is danger and he just don’t know/ you pray it all away but it continues to grow/”I Saw Her Standing There by The Beatles“Well she/ looked at me/ and I could see/ that before too long/ I’d fall in love with her/” While often times my fews on the viability of love and it’s further institutions can easily be contrued as “cynical” or “anti-”, I think the songs above illustrate that even when we tell ourselves we are stepping back and resolving our own demons, we cannot help but encounter unknown possibilities. Maybe there is truth to the old maxim “it’ll come along as soon as you stop looking for it”. Or perhaps it’s just obsession. Certainly we all know people who are addicted to one behaviour or another. I’d hate to think of someone as “my new drug”, but in hind-sight, I think we can all easily call to mind at least one person from our pasts who would fit that describtion. Sometimes a fling is just a fling, but sometimes a fling is a fucking harsh life lesson. In fact, I will venture the following hypothestis; it is easier to stand tall and firm in the snarling face of adversity than in the comforting warmth of awful embrace.
When it’s all said and done, I wonder who will think of me as their “Best Mistake”.
By the way, the rest of the songs follow a vague narrative arc. I don’t think this applies to any one person so much as the natural cycle of my own love-life.
Then again, it could all be “true love” and I haven’t realized it yet…..
This list has been actively debated by the GF and I for a little while now, and I want to get down my ideas right now, just in case I’m later persuaded that my ideas are less right and I end up with some kind of tutu dog on a bedazzled pink leash….
Without further ado, here’s the pooches I’d like to own
(btw, all of these dogs are compact, to be better suited to urban, yardless living)
1.) English Bulldog
I’ve wanted one of these dogs probably since I saw Adam Sandler’s dog playing basketball with him. Slobber-machine aside, these guys are stocky & solid (just like me) and pretty irresistible when you see them in public (also just like me). After-all, everyone wants to have someone around who makes them feel loved and secure at the same time. Possible names include: Brooklyn, Bronx, Igloo or Roosevelt.
I’ve already covered the predominant reasons I want to own a schnauzer in this post. In addition, I’m decently sure that if I owned one of these, I’d probably end up reading more, and being someone who says to people “Wasn’t it so and so who said (insert great quote here). (receive nods and applause here)”. Sounds like win-win, no? Possible names include: Kafka, Franz, or Herman.
3.) Jack Russell Terrier
I admit, I really first liked these guys because Fraiser had one. I have to say, I’ve gotten mixed reviews about Jack Russells and their boundless energy. Might have to get mine a treadmill or something. Perhaps, though, owning a hunting dog in the city is just not a great idea. Damn you, Wishbone, you made them look so cool, and literate. Possible names include: Alexander or Simon
This past weekend I saw one of these at the Humane Society and was mere seconds away from taking it home and hiding it’s existence from my apartment complex until Anie convinced me that it’d be much more reasonable to wait. It was not a great feeling leaving the poor pooch there, but probably for the best. After all, it’s at the Biltmore. That badboy is probably eating out of some kind of gold-plated food dish tonight.
5.) French Bulldog
Not sure whether it’s fair or not, but I see these dogs as a streamlined version of their English counter-parts. Typically, I shy away from most things with “French” in the name, likely tied to a French’s Mustard overdose as a youngster, but having seen one or two of these in the park across the street, they seem to be Americanized enough to love. After all, one of my favorite YouTube videos features a frenchie. (Don’t worry, he figures it out)
List completed, let me say that whatever dog I get will most certainly be a rescue of some type. There are too many dogs out there that need homes, and puppy-farms have to be among the most evil places ever created.
1.) Eating better. True, I always have a great time at the Phoenix Public Market, and have been reading the “Abs Power Diet” book from Men’s Health (can the title be any more “buns of steel”-esque?) but now it’s up to me to put this into practice. On nights when Anie’s around, it’s pretty easy, since she does a great job motivating me to cook usually. The challenge will be the nights when I get home from the office late and really just want a sandwich on the way home. Add to all this the part about me & Anie watching “Food INC” last week and now feeling guilty about eating factory-meats and such.
2.) Calling Cards (or personal business cards). Yes, I’ve been thinking about this since Nov 2008 and still haven’t taken action, but hopefully now I’ve found a good source (both in performance and business ethics), and can meet with my resident branding specialist to get something accomplished.
3.) Writing. I like to pretend that I’m a pretty decent writer and that the only thing holding me back is my lack of ambition and/or resources. I say “like to pretend” to make it sound like less of an embarassing admission of truth. Sorta like “oh, Jake just likes to pretend like he’s Superman and jumps off of things pretending they’re really high”, as opposed to “poor Jake, he actually thinks he’s Superman. That body-cast has to be itchy”. See the difference? In truth, if I could write fulltime, be it for a magazine, blog, my own novels, random people on the street, whatever, I’d be pretty happy doing it. I don’t know that I could enjoy the solitary hours of a writer, but I suppose there’s always Twitter for that.
4.) My nerd-crush on Tina Fey. Yup, that one’s not going anywhere anytime soon.
5.) Leading by example. This one is pretty tough to illustrate for you here, (or for myself, for that matter), but more than anything I’ve been kicking myself these last 2-3 months thinking “I really need to start leading by example”, both at work and at home. It’s time to get up off my duff and really make things happen.
1.) Dominant Andy Pettite
2.) A-Rod & Tex’s bats come alive
3.) First-Base Pick-Off
4.) Brett Gardner triple
5.) Umpires that get the calls right.
1.) Better style/theme presentation
2.) Better colors? I don’t really know where to start
3.) Regularly scheduled content
4.) A sweet new header
5.) Wicked sexy photos of me for the Bio page